The Details Are in the Devil

Today's readings: Psalms 34, 147:12-20; Proverbs 8:22-30; 1 John 5:1-12, John 13:20-35

In John's account of the last supper, after Jesus handed Judas a piece of bread, "Satan entered into [Judas]" and Jesus sent him on his way to advance his act of betrayal (John 13:27). What do we think of this idea of Satan entering him? Do we think Judas was set up? Not in control? A co-conspirator with the Devil himself? All these ideas and more have been proposed by theologians across the centuries. One of the reasons they appeal to some of us is that they suggest Judas was not wholly responsible for his actions, and the next logical step down that path of thinking is that perhaps we are not wholly responsible for our own wrongdoings. Even if we don't blame Satan directly, we are prone to pin our failings on others: parents who were too strict (or not strict enough), peers who pressure us into poor choices, employers who don't treat us fairly, spouses who disappoint us. The simple truth is we are responsible for our own actions. Period.


An earlier chapter in John tells us Judas, as treasurer of the group, stole from the money bag (John 12:6). Satan doesn't get the blame for that one, which implies something about Judas’ character. It may seem like a big leap from stealing petty cash to betraying the savior of the world, but is it really? Certainly we all fail and sin in ways big and small, so what’s the difference between us and Judas?

Nothing, that’s what. And admitting that unpleasant truth can keep us from falling into the same spiritual trap as Judas. Just as we let God into our lives a little at a time by opening a door in our hearts through acts and attitudes of love and charity, we let in evil – whatever we name it – through acts and attitudes of selfishness and betrayal. Evil didn’t force its way into Judas: it stepped through an opening pushed wide over time. The good news is we can control which doorway is wide and which is narrow. Facing up to that control may involve the difficult task of honestly reevaluating our accountability for our own choices, but doing so prepares us to make better ones that let Christ in further. And in Christ there are no victims, only victors.

Evening readings: Psalms 19, 121

A Relationship With Mystery

Today's readings: Ps 34, 145; Prov 8:22-30; 1 John 5:1-12; John 13:20-35

When we’re young (or young to our faith) we most easily understand Christianity as a religion—a list of rules and ideas defining our relationship with God. This fledgling Christianity can provide comfort, often in the form of answers. In the long run, however, we must admit we face far more questions than we have answers. In the midst of these questions, we have three basic options: 1) to abandon our faith as inadequate or false; 2) to cling to religiosity despite our experiences; or 3) to mature from Christianity as religion to Christianity as relationship.

Experiencing our faith as a relationship—to God and others—takes us away from the feelings of comfort and control provided by rules. Like all steps into the unknown, this one can be frightening. Some people stay in miserable situations—soul-sucking jobs, abusive relationships, etc.—because fear of the unknown paralyzes them. Should this be the story of our faith life? It doesn’t have to be, if we can think of the mystery of faith as an adventure rather than a trial. This week we will not seek answers. Instead we will explore the mystery and paradox of faith.

Let’s begin by considering the odd exchange between Judas and Jesus at the Last Supper. When the disciples wanted Jesus to tell them who would betray him, he didn’t name names but dipped some bread, handed it to Judas, and said: “Do quickly what you are going to do.” At that moment, John tells us, “Satan entered into him” and he left (John 13:21-30). Earlier in the Gospel, Jesus successfully evaded the authorities a number of times, yet he allows (encourages?) a close companion to betray him. Why bring it up at all if he doesn’t intend to stop it, or let the disciples stop it? We don’t have to go so far as the Gnostics who paint Judas as a hero of the salvation story to realize this revelation of betrayal and the relationships it portrays are not black and white. What does it say about God’s transformational grace that even betrayal can serve a higher purpose?

Comfort: Mystery welcomes and frees us.

Challenge: Create a ”family tree” that doesn’t focus on biological relationships, but spiritual ones. Allow it to grow as complex as it will.

Prayer: God of Mystery, I trust you to lead me through the unknown.

Evening reading: Ps 29, 121


Tomorrow's readings: Ps 54, 146; Isa 48:12-21; Gal. 1:18-2:10; Mark 6:1-13